Post by Pear on May 25, 2014 23:07:42 GMT -5
Here lies Henry Saracen.
Here lies Matt Saracen's father, the father he hated, the father who wasn't there for him, the father who's now in a coffin, buried under the dirt that leaves Matt's shovel. He wasn't a monster, but he wasn't a good father, either. The responsibilities that should've been his were taken on by his son at an early age, and Matt's had to deal with situations that many teenagers have never had to face because there's always been that one constant in their lives: a supportive family.
Yet, if there's one constant for Matt Saracen, it's his unwavering selflessness, the fact that he's simply a good kid. It might be disappointing to see him stay with those around him--with Lorraine, with Julie--at the expense of pursuing his dreams, but those decisions encapsulate the essence of his character. Matt Saracen will be Matt Saracen, even if it may hurt him.
When his father dies, Matt Saracen tries to be Matt Saracen. It's hard, though, because expectations don't mesh with how he wants to feel, to act. Dillon's a town that fosters a sense of community, and the idea of family is integral in such a small environment; when you lose a family member, you're expected to act a certain way, to feel a certain way, because you loved this person and he or she loved you back. But Matt hates his dad. How is he supposed to act? How is he supposed to tell those around him this very fact? What exactly does grief look like?
We don't know. It's different for each person, and it depends on your personal experiences; you can't place a length of time on grief, nor can you necessarily categorize it into various stages, nor can you expect a certain behavior to result from it. You might, for example, expect tears; it doesn't mean that will be the response. Guilt is a common response--and I believe that's what Matt feels here--especially for kids who've lost people with whom they had a tumultuous relationship with; they might've hoped that one day, their parents would turn out to be as loving as they're supposed to be, or they might've felt that so much was left unsaid, left undone.
Matt feels guilty because he feels the exact opposite of what he's expected to feel--slamming the door in the McCoys' faces, though, I'm sure everyone wants to do--and because he's such a good kid, his resentment of his father causes that guilt. Yet, he also has to come to terms with the fact that who he is isn't merely the result of him being inherently good; it's also the result of him making sure he didn't follow his father's example. In "The Son", he has to decide: Do I go along with this "funny" version of my dad, or do I go down the difficult road of facing my true feelings for this man?
He has to face his true feelings, but he can't even express those feelings to his father's corpse. "I want to tell him to his face that I hate him, but he doesn't even have a face," he says at the Taylors' dinner table, and we're reminded of the horrified reaction on his own face once the casket is opened. Matt's being Matt here, apologizing for being rude and trying to keep it together, but he's also breaking down. It's the simple things, like the carrots touching the meat. Hate is destructive, but concentrated hate deflects. He acknowledges that.
Where better to do it than at the Taylor household? Family is not just those who are biologically related to us. Family comes in many forms, whether it be the mother who supports you when you're finalizing your funeral plans or the brothers who break into a funeral home to try and provide closure or the father who doesn't give you a big speech when you rush out of his house in tears. He simply walks you home.
Family will cheer for you on Friday nights, but family will also gather for your father's funeral. Family will listen as you deliver a eulogy. Finding words to express what you're feeling is never easy, and he's already done so with the Taylors and the guys from the team. Now, it's some form of closure. It's a beautiful eulogy that Matt gives, finding something funny in a story that doesn't seem all that funny. It's a good memory, though. It's not just for the people listening, but also for himself. For, he never truly knew his dad, someone who found his own family and was his own person away at war; that knowledge is what's feeding Matt's mourning.
A gunshot. Lorraine shivers. Matt takes the shovel. There's a flash of blood. Henry Saracen, buried. "Driveway" plays and we watch him, Julie standing beside him as he digs and digs and digs. Pain and resentment and guilt will never disappear, but in this moment, it all becomes catharsis. There are lots of things Matt Saracen doesn't know, but one thing is for sure: only he can bury his father.
Here lies Henry Saracen, and here stands The Son.
GRADE: A
OTHER THOUGHTS:
-Lots of other stuff happens in this episode, and I was surprised to find out this was the case. It seems like everything falls back until all we're left with is Matt, and my, what a performance Zach Gilford gives. Just incredible.
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